Cleaning things up

Been getting rid of a lot of old things around the house lately and now thoughts are turning to organizing and setting things up the way we want them around the house. I started picturing different rooms in the house and how I’d like to arrange them. I started thinking about how cool it would be if I could do that in my brain. Go through old thoughts and memories and decide which ones to keep and which to throw away.

I started visualizing going through the memories and thoughts

Where did this one come from?
What the hell is this one still doing in here?
Do I really still need the 8080 assembly programming? (It’s just taking up valuable space that could be used by more up to date information)
I really should have done this along time ago, look at all the cobwebs.
Danny Ellifritz – I don’t really need to remember his name. The only reason I do is because I dressed as a girl for Halloween one year. I wore sandals and painted my toenails. I forgot about painting my toenails until I was coming back from the shower in gym class and Danny pointed the toenails out to everyone. (to the dumpster with that puppy)

After I’m done cleaning out all the junk I don’t use…hmmm how to go about organizing it?

For the memories….I picture myself in a pleasant setting by a lake on a beautiful day and everywhere I turn I see the pleasant memories of my life. Yea…I like that.

I think I’ll keep the thoughts simple, in just 2 categories
Logic/reasoning thoughts in this row and feelings in that row
The rows will be stacked parallel to one another
Close to touching but not quite touching (they should have easy access to each other but never any confusion about which row they belong in)
Now I just need to figure out what order to put them in.

on morality

Secular schools can never be tolerated because such a school has no religious instruction and a general moral instruction without a religious foundation is built on air; consequently, all character training and religion must be derived from faith … We need believing people.”- Adolf Hitler, in a speech on April 26, 1933

people who believe you have to be religious to have morals drive me nuts

I mean really….which came first? religion or morality
if something is truly moral then it has always been that way, long before there were any religious institutions

but most religions and religious people believe they are the source of morality rather than being a vessel for morality

BPD patrol

With all the recent activity at dixiblog and poopismyfriend I thought it would be a good time to review BPD.

Borderline Personality Disorder IMHO is the technical definition of a bitch. We all know one, maybe a family member, coworker, or if you’re really a glutton for punishment you married one. Understanding what is going on in the mind of a BPD can give you a great deal of comfort and relief and confidence when dealing with these individuals. You ask yourself what could possibly cause a person to act the way a BPD does and in your wildest imagination you can’t fathom their behavior. Not understanding the BPD is a good thing, it means you aren’t the crazy one.

Things to help cope with a BPD
1. Avoid them whenever possible.
2. Don’t try to figure out what they are thinking. You really can’t because you aren’t nuts, and it’ll just hurt your brain if you try.
3. If you do have to interact with one keep all conversation to a minimum, as business like as possible. This keeps you from being a source of filling their numerous voids.
4. If the conversation with a BPD turns argumentative, end it. Don’t keep feeding the BPD. The BPD needs the excitement of the conflict. It’s not mean to do this; you’d hang up on obscene phone caller. This is the same thing; you are being used to fulfill their twisted needs.
5. Don’t try to reach or reason with them. A BPD doesn’t really hear anything you tell them. They will listen for information that will be useful for them (if you share personal info they’ll use later it as a weapon). Think of it as a sales call, the salesperson is really just waiting for you to shut up so they can say what they want to say.

dynamics of thought

I’ve been thinking about the cat scans they do of people’s brains while they are thinking, the scans show which part of the brain is in use during a thought or emotion. I was wondering if the reverse was true, if I starting thinking about different parts of my brain working if I would feel or start thinking about different things. I imagined a ying yang symbol superimposed in my brain and started stimulating all the areas of my brain that laid along its lines. I felt strangely calm while I focused on the ying yang in my brain. I then pictured a trident spear and felt somewhat of an adrenaline rush, aggressive type thoughts. And then I pictured this overlaying my brain and had a nut.

the hulk

I have a recurring theme in my dreams, being able to tear up the ground. One time I cut into a hill and just started tearing it apart like you tear a bed sheet. Last night had another one of those, there was a crack in the ground and I just lifted up several layers of earth and crawled under the layers. I thought about staying underground for a while, but then I started worrying about people walking on top of me. I haven’t tried the dream interpretation book yet, because I don’t really think there will be anything about tearing the ground apart….any thoughts?